So today is kinda a big day for my family. It's my sister, Amber's 27th Birthday. She is in Heaven, and not here to be with us to celebrate today.
Today started out kinda Suckey. I felt like because its been five years, no one really cared anymore. I got Jonah ready for school and got ready for an early morning coffee. I fought against the urge to just stay in Bed and wallow in grief, but pulled myself together, got ready and headed into Starbucks.
I'm kinda a day dreamer.... (like you couldn't have guessed that about me!) And I was thinking of how different my life would be if she was only here with us still. And that would be my wish, if I could have just one. But it dawned on me that today was a day of celebration, not of sadness. So on my way into Red Deer I put on my timer on my phone, let myself cry for exactly 5 minutes and then resorted to celebrate life today.
My mom gave birth to an amazing little (well not that little) baby girl 27 years ago today. And we got 22 years to enjoy being with her. No matter what I was gonna celebrate.
I arrived at Starbucks and no sooner did I have my Toffee Mocha in hand that I was celebrating life with a good friend. We always talk about FUN stuff.... shopping, our husbands, and God (And of course more shopping) Before I knew it I was laughing. In that moment I knew that Amber was alive in my laughter. She was always laughing.... Those memories of her laughing are the best ones!
So when you want to just shut off the lights and have one of those days, try and remember that we have a choice. We can choose to trudge through and push on to see what God has in store that day. Its not always easy, but it is worth it. Today was worth it, that laughter in the morning was worth it.
I do have a favor to ask of anyone who reads this post. Not a big favor but one I think can make a difference. Hug someone you LOVE, or better yet, HUG someone you don't! Don't let the moment pass you by, LOVE is ALWAYS the answer. I never said it would be easy, I said it would be worth it!
Lots of Love,
Amber's Sister,
Melissa
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